Bouncing around, I'm not exactly too sure where to begin to tell you my story. It wasn't like quick decision making; I've put many thoughts and considerations into the sex worker industry.
On Friday night, I saw a kid wearing a batman costume on my way home from the office, feeling exhausted. I began to wonder when was the last time I've got a chance to watch a movie.
Believe me or not, it's 2021, yet it was my first time watching Batman vs Joker. Though, in my weird opinion, Joker was the hero. He was my hero for stating facts of "If you're good at something, never do it for free", which woke me up!
My basic understanding of happiness was getting to a well-known university and achieving a certificate, then being in a well-paid job. I never once had a normal childhood as I had to support myself since I was a little kid. I worked three different positions on the minimum wage, 80 hours a week; it gets me nowhere close to where I wanted to be!
Now that I graduated and fortunate to have the job of my dream, the happiness I long waited for fades away. If there's one thing the university taught me, it would be the speech at my ceremony.
"Don't ever attach yourself to a person, a place, a company, an organisation, or a project. Attach yourself to a mission, a calling, a purpose ONLY. That's how you keep your power and your peace. "
- Erica Williams Simon
Coming from such a berserk family background, all I ever wish is a family of my own. One that I can be proud of and held dear, and therefore, I have a mission. I am willing to do whatever it takes to be financially stables to support my family in the long run, and frankly speaking, this part-time job isn't on my list.
I will admit that I am in this industry for the money aspect. Many others don't realise that this is not the easy job as it may sound/look. Every single penny I earn here is just as complex as any other job field.
Most sex workers deserve to be respected and more recognised as this job is mentally and physically exhausting. From my experience up to this point, I find myself consistently facing the temptation of greeds. It is the greed to earn more and be willing to sacrifice countless nights of sleep or on the hobbies I once loved.
It's relatively easy to forget about ourselves once stepping into this industry. Thankfully, I been through a lot in my life that nothing gets me anymore. I never touch drugs even once despite the worst experiences in my childhood years, to which I am grateful. Once in a while, I spoiled myself, but I do my best to make more profit most of the time. When I can afford to, I took a long holiday off travelling to different countries as a volunteer to support children charities as I understand what it is like to be hopeless on your own.
Being a part-time escort allows flexibility for me to pursue my goal, to accomplish my dream faster and the ability to help others in needs. I take pride in what I do and respect other girls within the industry, and so should you.